LESI TESFAYE
The Misfit Butterfly
Something about me is that I want to be able to grow. And of course I'm going to grow since I'm still young. I know that some things won't come easy, that is where I put my all into it. I decided to throw all of the things that were holding me back out of the window and began working on myself. And this is where my story begins. I call myself a Misfit Butterfly, because ever since I was younger, I was bullied, harassed, and picked on by people who weren't in my league. But being a Misfit butterfly always been something of me. My spirit animal is butterflies because of how beautiful they are. They are able to change and continue to fly unapologetically. Which is why I say Fuck Criticism and Continue to fly. From the one and only Lesi Tesfaye.
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The Books, The Magazines, Everything...
MAESTRA: THE FEMME FATALE
"There he was. The man that haunted my dreams at night, terrorized me. Brutalized me, and traumatized me for 7 years. Both of them were staring me down, ready to hurt me again. No one was here to save me this time. It all relies on if I really want to escape. I relied on others to protect me once and I lost everything. Never again"
WHO IS LESI TESFAYE?
Power is something I thought I never had. I guess it was the anxiety that had me thinking that I wasn’t good enough or people could just run over me any kind of way. To everyone, I was weak, short minded, weird, and problematic. I was always anxious and afraid of gaining power. I never wanted a whole lot of power because I never thought that I would be enough to take control of it. Now that I know that there is a bigger meaning to what power really is, suddenly I want to take control over what I really want in life. For my reason of performance as a citizen, to me it means I can continue to push forward and that means I have the ability to shape the world around me. Especially being a writer. Obviously, I can shape the world around me with my words, but it’s up to me to let go of that set back and actually become free.
BODY APPRECIATION
Growing up, I was always ashamed of my body. I didn’t like my curves, I didn’t like my stretch marks, I hated my acne and I always stayed inside the house to hide myself from being bullied for my looks. I remember brushing my teeth in the morning and I wouldn’t even look in the mirror because I would always cry about the way that I look when I see myself. Overtime I would try to focus on loving my body and myself, but once someone says, “You’re ugly.” I’m back to being an introvert. It’s not like I can control the way I look because when I do, I still would be disrespected in different ways. I used to get compliments on the way I look, but I never believed them.
HEAVENLY CREATURE POEM
And the guys, with them she's like a devil
I'm sorry there's no chemistry, it's nothing special
Her powerful allure she has, she really loves to initiate
From the actions she stimulate, how she can get intimate, from the touch she titillates
A YOUNG BLACK MIND: ENCOURAGEMENT
Even during the pandemic and my senior year, I suffered a horrible eating disorder. Everytime I felt stressed out, or sad, I would spend loads of money on food just to make myself feel better. Sadly, that didn’t work at all, it only made me feel worse. Thinking about it now, it makes me feel bad, but when I was doing it, I couldn’t stop. It was like some kind of addiction that I couldn’t tackle. As I stated in my previous writing piece, I would mope around in my house eating, playing video games, and basically felt like a failure. Nobody could tell me anything because I would basically push them away from me and continue to mope around consuming different foods. That was the lowest I have ever been.
